Life is getting dull every day. I must join the army or
anything for a living. I am 21 and should be working by now. My friends, or the
ones I knew, have jobs or getting jobs, working their ass-out to make a living in
this ever so boring world or, should I say, chaotic. Chaotic because of some
phony guys out there and the inevitable harsh climate. Gimme a break!
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I once wrote
that visitors are annoying, they still are. You ask why? Because they are not
part of the family, that’s why.
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My wound is
getting itchy, wounds get very itchy when they are getting well and you don’t
want it when it is itchy. If you feel itchy it is nice a sensation, you know. I
hate it when your head is itchy, too. Dandruff. Dandruff again, I can’t get it
out even though I use an anti-dandruff shampoo.
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If you’re
feeling hopeless you’ll write. Everybody writes when they are hopeless, unless
tell it to somebody. Telling stories or what I felt is not really my style,
actually I don’t like people who are talkative and making such gossip. Gossip
are such a pain in the ass. I hate the feeling of hopelessness. There are a lot
of options but it seems dark, you know. How long can I stand being a hopeless
crap. Sometimes waiting can be a bore, sometimes. When people can’t wait for
the opportunity come and there’s a lot of hopelessness in his/her mind he might
commit suicide. As I think it over and over it is irrational and illogical, all
the time I think about it. Choosing to commit suicide instead of drinking is
such a waste.
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Did you know
that China has an ‘Age of Sage’, well if I keep writing like this stuff I can
be a sage or something. If I’m gone, and
everything, and somebody reads my blogs or my notebook that person might form a
sect or anything like it to stand to my beliefs. It is quite funny to think of.
It always happens to philosopher, writers and artists. What is wrong with them
forming sects or something? I makes me sick yet fascinated by their fanaticism.
My life is beautiful thanks to you, Mein Helfer. Lord Jesus in my life as a candle light in the darkness. You showed me the meaning of faith with your words. I know that even when I cried all day thinking about how to recover, you were not sleeping, you were dear to me. I contacted the herbal center Dr Itua, who lived in West Africa. A friend of mine here in Hamburg is also from Africa. She told me about African herbs but I was nervous. I am very afraid when it comes to Africa because I heard many terrible things about them because of my Christianity. god for direction, take a bold step and get in touch with him in the email and then move to WhatsApp, he asked me if I can come for treatment or I want a delivery, I told him I wanted to know him I buy ticket in 2 ways to Africa To meet Dr. Itua, I went there and I was speechless from the people I saw there. Patent, sick people. Itua is a god sent to the world, I told my pastor about what I am doing, Pastor Bill Scheer. We have a real battle beautifully with Spirit and Flesh. Adoration that same night. He prayed for me and asked me to lead. I spent 2 weeks and 2 days in Africa at Dr Itua Herbal Home. After the treatment, he asked me to meet his nurse for the HIV test when I did it. It was negative, I asked my friend to take me to another nearby hospital when I arrived, it was negative. I was overwhite with the result, but happy inside of me. We went with Dr. Itua, I thank him but I explain that I do not have enough to show him my appreciation, that he understands my situation, but I promise that he will testify about his good work. Thank God for my dear friend, Emma, I know I could be reading this now, I want to thank you. And many thanks to Dr. Itua Herbal Center. He gave me his calendar that I put on my wall in my house. Dr. Itua can also cure the following diseases ... Cancer, HIV, Herpes, Hepatitis B, Inflammatory Liver, Diabetis, Fribroid,Parkinson's disease,Inflammatory bowel disease ,Fibromyalgia, recover your ex. You can contact him by email or whatsapp, @ .. drituaherbalcenter@gmail.com, phone number .. + 2348149277967 .. He is a good doctor, talk to him kindly. I'm sure he will also listen to you.
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